Can you categorize or put a sense of time to the things you do on a daily basis? What are the things, projects or people you dedicate most your time to… These are some of the questions that have been swimming in my brain for quite sometime now… and I have put some serious thought into how I spend my time…
As I entered the pod today I was unsure of what I was going to focus on, all I knew is that this is my special time & I will get the most out of it. As minutes past by & I got deeper into my meditation the word that popped into my head was, “Time”. Everything takes time & in life all we have is this time here on earth.
The float pods use up an hour of time, the drive here takes about 45 minutes, to get dressed & back into reality takes about 30 or so minutes & the drive home takes about 45 to 75 minutes. That is a lot of time that is dedicated to my float time. But that is okay because I highly value this time. This time in the pods is extremely restorative, helpful & enlightening. We can measure the things we care about or value by measuring the amount time we dedicate to them. Lately this has been on mind a lot, especially in friendships & relationships. See the more we value something the more Time we dedicate to them. To me if something is not worth my time then there is little value or space in my life for whatever that may be.
With this in mind I am easily able to rule out the things that are not serving me for the highest good. If a friendship is not serving me, I tend to step away this is a queue that the relationship is not serving me for the highest good. I must then re-evaluate the relationship & ask myself why I hold onto it & how it serves me. In order for us to live to our fullest potential & to do what serves us best, we must let go of the things that are not serving us for the better. Even our jobs or work are measured by the time we dedicate to them. If we hate our jobs so much, then we must evaluate why we remain there day after day. It cannot be just the paycheck because a paycheck can come from anywhere, so we might as well find a job that serves another or us in one way.
Everything takes time… Creating new life takes time, building a friendship, building a home, learning a new language even finding a true Love takes time… so it’s up to us to dedicate the time to the things that matter to us most… and to let go of the things that do not raise our spirits…
Just as with everything in life we have to keep in mind as recovering addicts that the addict goes through a process of evolution. Newly recovered addicts want to rush the process and see immediate results or feel immediate gratification in the recovery process (much like in their addictions). But this is not the case it usually takes months and even years to start feeling “normal”, whatever “Normal” is anyways. And if you were anything like me than you never knew what “normal” was in the first place because I started using at such a young age that I never got the chance to know what normal was let alone to know who I was or what I wanted, because all I knew is that I wanted to feel different escape the pain that haunted me inside. Recovering from addiction is a long process and should not be rushed. Patience is one of the most valuable virtues to practice while in recovery. How does that saying go, “Let live & let God” this is a great saying as you have to surrender, let life takes it course & learn how to live in this world if you want to make it to the next stage, whatever that maybe.
“Normal is an illusion. What is normal for the spider is chaos for the fly.”
New addicts are no different than new born babies. Instead of learning how to crawl, learning to walk, learning to eat, learning to use the potty addicts have to learn how to live life, how to build healthy relationships. The newly recovered addict has to learn how to socialize without the use of substances, they have to learn to function in a “sober” world without mind altering substances. All of this can be frightening & most likely will be, but the addict has to keep in mind that “Everything takes Time”. I cannot say this enough! Why, because it is the honest to gods truth. So to you my dear friends, if you are in recovery or have a friend who is in recovery the one thing I would like you to keep in mind is that you have to have great patience for the process to work. It’s a long, scary, frightening process but in the end it is all worth it & your life can & will be filled with so much Love, good friends and hope… So do not give up on yourself because you are worth so much more than you give yourself credit for..
Until next time… Peace be with you…